Scratching the Itch and Getting Bred

 I have officially been locked for over 2 weeks (18 days to be precise) with zero orgasms and no cumming. This lockup has been a much slower build when it comes to the horniness, but I'm honestly enjoying the journey a lot more this time than previous lockups. While there are ups and downs in my mood, I have a better understanding of "why" those fluctuations occur and I feel a lot more grounded in my purpose as my Bull's chastity piggy. 

Yesterday was a prime example of my role as a locked sub. Since Monday, I've been enjoying a nice slow horny build. I've been chatting with some kink friends, teasing each other, and also scrolling kink socials. This has helped me maintain a horny haze that's been pulsating in the background and has felt pretty good. Tuesday, I woke up straining HARD to the point I had cage bar imprints on my nub. I was super excited about plugging up after work. Unfortunately, work happened. It was a rough day that completely soured my mood, and I ended up not plugging. 

My body and my hole were very unhappy it didn't get fed the day before, so the horniness hit me like a truck yesterday. Everything I saw or every post I read caused me to strain in my cage. I was very much looking forward to plugging after work and scratching that itch. I mixed up a fresh batch of XLube and let that sit while I wrapped up my meetings. I got everything done earlier than expected and was so ready for my hole to be stretched open by the GK75. I did a quick clean out and warmed up with the GK65. After a couple reps, I swapped to the 75 and it slid right in with minimum resistance. It's as if my hole was starving and had to gobble up the plug as quickly as possible. 

I was feeling extra slutty caged and plugged, so I took some pictures and posted to Bluesky. Some of you may have seen them in my post yesterday. I also decided to send those pictures to my Bull. He had just gotten home from work and was relaxing downstairs. I genuinely wasn't expecting anything from sending him those pictures. One thing I've been working on during this lockup is accepting that my Bull doesn't always have to give me dick. It's more a privilege and reward to be fucked and bred and not a right of a locked piggy. I'm still working on this and evolving into this mindset. I guess in a weird way, because I wasn't demanding or expecting anything, I ended up earning the Bull's reward. 

He came upstairs to inspect his piggy. We started cuddling and just touching each other and enjoying the time together. At this point, I still wasn't expecting dick at all. I was focused on the moment and getting the chance to relax with my Bull holding me and playing with my nipples. My nipples get extremely sensitive when I'm locked, so as my Bull manipulated my nipples, I started to whimper and moan. A gentle flow of pre-cum continuously oozed out of my nub.

I was gently playing with his semi and felt the blood start flowing into his cock. The hardness began to engulf my hand and I started stroking him slowly up and down. I moved my head down and placed the head in my mouth and started to gently suck on his cock. As it got more and more slick, I was able to work more and more of his hard dick into my mouth and throat. My Bull had been fairly quiet prior to this, but he started to moan as I worked his cock like the obedient piggy I'm working on becoming.

Two things continued to intrigue me during this process. The first was how my Bull's moans affected me. Every breath, every moan, every whimper he would let out caused me to strain against my cage. His pleasure and enjoyment were turning me on and causing my nub to get more and more aroused. The second was how I still was not expecting to get fucked. My focus was on pleasuring my Bull however he wanted it. If that resulted in finishing him with my hand, that was how he wanted to orgasm in the moment and my job was to provide that.

After a while of continuing to hold and caress each other, my Bull asked me if I was ready to get fucked. I've never really had this question take me off guard before. Normally I'm itching to slide his hard member into my warm hole, but this day was different. I was enjoying the moment and allowing whatever happened to happen. I said yes since I had already cleaned out and was plugged. The excitement was coursing through my body. 

I got into doggy position on the bed and my Bull climbed up behind me. He started tugging at the plug and working it in and out of my hole. I focused on slowly pushing out and contracting my hole at the right moment to ensure I could properly milk his cock when the time came. He eventually pulled the plug out of my ass and replaced it with the head of his dick. Since I had been plugged with the GK75, my hole was pretty open so Bull slid into me with one swift motion. As he bottomed out in my warm wet hole, he let out a satisfied moan. 

He started pumping his hips back and forth and using my hole for his pleasure. It felt amazing as every inch of his hardness slid in and out of my hole and I felt it rubbing against my prostate. But I knew I couldn't just enjoy the fucking, I had a job to do. I needed to maximize my Bull's pleasure, so I started to contract and constrict my sphincter muscles in time with his thrusts. I heard him moan louder and I used my ass to milk his cock. I even felt a decent amount of wetness and knew he was coating my insides with his pre-cum. 

Bull continued to fuck me at a steady pace and moaned in approval of the pleasure I was giving him. His moans truly filled me with pleasure and satisfaction to a degree beyond a simple jack off and orgasm. Suddenly, I heard "Oh shit, I'm cumming". One thing to know about Bull is that it takes him a while to cum and on this occasion, it was considered pretty fast. This filled me with even more pride and satisfaction that my body could get him to orgasm so quickly and he couldn't hold back. It reinforced my need to continue to hole train and provide Bull with the best hole to fuck. His moans grew louder and I could feel his cock pulsing inside me as he emptied his load into his personal cumdump.

After he was done, we showered together to clean up and Bull had a satisfied smile on his face. We both agreed we weren't expecting to have anal sex and it was a bit unexpected, but very much welcomed, haha! In my post yesterday, I mentioned I had an itch only the GK75 could scratch. I guess Bull proved me wrong with a very unexpected, but satisfying breeding. This locked piggy feels very well fed.

Why do I lock up?

Today I hit 14 days locked! I'm entering the phase of a lockup where I am slowly losing my mind over horniness and I want to rip this cage off and cum, haha! It's crazy to me what a week difference makes. Getting my mind back together and focusing on chastity has contributed to this horny buildup. Last post, I discussed how far I've come in 3 years of chastity. I wanted a separate post to explore why I lock up. With horniness and sexual frustration creeping in, I think now is as good a time as any to dive into that. Hopefully it will help me reestablish my purpose as a locked piggy. 

My number 1 need sexually is to satisfy my partner, particularly my Bull. While in general, this is a very submissive mindset, it goes beyond Domination and submission. It directly targets how I feel sexually satisfied long term and not just the short term release of an orgasm. Don't get me wrong, orgasms are great and feel good in the moment, but I've never been able to sustain that satisfaction. However, when I'm sexually servicing my Bull and using my body to give him pleasure, every moan, every whimper, every compliment and feedback, and every little piece of pleasure he is feeling seemingly passes through me. 

By locking up, I'm able to focus on this side of my sexual pleasure and satisfaction and I've found it to be so much more long lasting. It can be days after we've had sex, and when I think back to the feel of his hard throbbing cock in my hand or in my mouth, or when I remember his dick sliding in and out of my hole and finally releasing his load into me, it feels so fulfilling and satisfying. The thought that my body is able to provide so much sexual pleasure to my Bull keeps me motivated to work more and give him more pleasure. Even days later, I'm able to think back on those moments and derive pleasure from them. 

This is the mental aspect of why I lock up. I realized that masturbating and orgasming was very short and fleeting. There is not a long term establishment of purpose in that act. Chastity allows me to sustain that mental engagement with sex and my sexuality and allow the physical moments to extend beyond a 15-30 second orgasm.

There is also a physical component to chastity for me. When I think back on my sexual experiences, I've never really derived much pleasure from my penis. Sure, I would jack off, orgasm, and that would feel good, but I never really felt like my penis gave me any sort of mind blowing physical pleasure. I remember in high school, when guys would brag about getting blowjobs from girls, I was always so envious and wanted to experience a blowjob (albeit from a guy not a girl). The first time I got my dick sucked, it wasn't that mindblowing act I've heard so much about for so long. Even fucking a guy for the first time, sure it felt good, but it wasn't anything beyond amazing. I'll be honest, it didn't feel any better or worse than jacking off. 

Don't get me wrong, for the most part, I still like my penis. I like having one and being a man, but chastity has changed the way I interact with my body sexually. For example, I love the feeling of leaking precum. That inherently is an act produced by a man's genitals. Being locked allows me to leak more often and at higher volumes. Feeling the liquid traveling up my urethra and being pushed out and the wetness on my clothes is a huge turn-on for me. I also love visually seeing my dick in a cage and watching my balls grow and fill up as more and more days go by without release. All of these are reasons why I lock up. 

After discovering chastity, and now being over 3 years in, I've been able to discover other pleasure centers in my body beyond my penis. Without being able to orgasm traditionally, my nipples, hole, prostate, balls, and even just physical touch grants me so much more sexual pleasure than my penis ever did. This is the physical component of why I lock. I know often in D/s literature, they say a sub's pleasure comes from the Dom. While that's true for some aspects of why I lock up, recognizing my own physical pleasure from orgasm retention and denial is an important complement to that. I am able to get pleasure from toys, butt plugs, my Bull touching me and massaging me, as well as him fucking me. Chastity has opened me up to a whole other world of physical pleasure I never really experienced prior.

Chastity gives me a sense of sexual power that I've never felt before. Traditionally, men have been taught that their penis gives their sexual partners pleasure. In how they fuck, or whether they can make a partner orgasm with their penis, society places a high degree of sexual prowess in those acts. I've never felt that. I have to admit, my dick is nothing to write home about. At best, it's perfectly average. Being locked up, I realized I can provide other men, and in particular my Bull, with a level of sexual pleasure and satisfaction my penis never could. This sexual power I feel and the gain from being in chastity directly tap into my need for praise and recognition. It allows me to establish myself as a sexual being that can provide pleasure through other parts of my body and receive that pleasure in return. 

These are the reasons why I lock up. While there is a Dom/sub component to it, at the end of the day, chastity allows me to better connect with the sexual being I need to be.